Learning to Fall

I'm slowwwwwiiinnnnnggggggg ddddddooooooooowwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnn.It's almost the end of the month,my 10th post for July(Mathematically,1 post every 3 days,2 hours and 24 minutes)and aparently I'm a wreck.Here's why :D

-Assignments(chem and Maths.Sooo getting annoyed now)
-Tennis(Gotta play more trials again...)
-Books(Found something worth crying about.Wait,I SPILLED IT!!=.=)
-Athletics Carnival(Forget I was even there....)
-TV Shows(Getting better...)

So then,what's the problem?I don't want to drink.Unfortunately,my chem assignment requires me to do so.Of course,if I'm James Bond,I woudn't mind 5 glasses of it or offer to a woman without asking her what she really wants,but I'm not.Smells nauseous(had a headache),potentially tastes like good-quality rubbish and has a chance of landing me at the wrong side of the law.Schhl just got better......As for Maths B,some assignment regarding a(get this)turtle race,where the distance the turtles travel(as well as direction)is determined by equations(Linear,quad,cube,logarithm?).We're gonna be required to give a distance-time graoh as well as commentaries and assumptions?COMMENTARIES??!!Annnnnnndddddd the rrraaaaccccceeee iiiisssss GOO!!STEADY START FROM LINUS LAD!!LOOK AT THE OTHER 3 GO!!RUBIXCUBE IS FLLLLYYYIIINNNNGGG!!SO'S BLOA HATTRICK!!AND SLEEPLYKALOG!!Wait,WHERE'
S IT GOING??OI!!GET YOUR HANDS OFF!!

Enough said,now to tennis.After my flying start,I was sent crashing down.Hard.The guy beat me in the 2nd set 4-6 so I'm technically out of the 1st IV trials.Oh well,honestly I didn't expect myself to be so close to it,yet went out feeling disappointed.I had him,and he ren aay grinning with the tail between his legs.I 'm not gonna put the blame on anyone though(of course,no one doesn't..),but I can't stand chattering,especially when someone's just bothered by little stuff such as the way "error" is pronounciated by different nations.Sorry,just felt like taking it out.

Atheltics Carnival today?I know you didn't ask....let's just say I tried to be a spectator,failed(was forced) and was utterly bored.Never really saw anything that disorganised....Honest,Grade 11 here,10 there,9 there......Who's who?In the end,our house finished 7th,but I don't really mind.After all,there's all the finger poining at who's cheat and who's playing foul,blah blah.They probably should learn from CHMS,who's joining,who's in(of course,I do recall some are forced XD).

I've just did my 1st shopping alone today XD(Boys?SHOPPING??!!OK people,act like the scene of "The Princess Diaries" and just tell me to "SHUT...UP!!!" :D).Book shopping to be precise.And what did I pick off the shelves?The Vampire Academy Series as well as some Men vs Women book that makes no sense but I'm in for the fun of reading it XD.Anyways,3 new victims from the library were recently read and here are the reviews(Note:I have 1 recommended book here that's a must read.No supernatural stuff just to let you all know :D)

1)Goosebumps:Deep Trouble(3 stars) and Goosebumps Horrorland:Creep From The Deep(3 1/2 stars)
Summary:-2 siblings spend their vacation with their uncle and soon sent to chase after a mermaid.
-The trio return to the seas in search of a pirat's treasure.Arrr.....

R.L. Stine's getting boring now,plainly because 8 is the new 12 and 15 is the new 24 XD.By the time some other spinoff Goosebump series comes up,toddlers' will be the majority of readers.Needs to stop spooking around....

O.O where did the 3rd one go?It's special enough to be in a separate post.Hope to get a picture of it :D.Title's "Dear John" and is written by Nicholas Sparks

Not much on TV once more,except wrestling(Can't see me :D) and my new favourite show..

Secret Life Of The American Teenager Episode 2(4 stars)
Summary:Wiki for details
One thing I enjoyed about this series is because its sometimes true,and funny,and saddddd.Kind of like the setting where Ben calls Amy and tells her he loves her,after ONLY ONE DATE.Ha-ha....awwwwwwwww...And no.of times "***" was said in the episode:16 XD LOL it's fun to count....

Anyways,posts's up and I'm gonna read "Battle Of The Sexes"(The dumb book I was talking about..."and start rolling my eyes like a pool break...

Secret Life

Back again!!Just to let you all know,I haven't been on the comp for 2 days due to (yes)extreme exhaustion(more on that later).I'll list down what I wanna talk about before moving on(so I wouldn't forget.And average adult forgets 3 facts,chores or events of the day.Men are more likely to do so than women,due to hectic schedules or heavy workloads.)

-Funny or weird stuff(Skin colour?School uniform?)
-Tennis(as always :D) and my shirts of pride(Don't ewwwwww....)
-Whining....
-Books and TV(Reviews!!)
-The end

Okayyy,first off with moments of the week.I was outside the library(waiting for my geo class.Don't wanna walk there after the bell rings..)and apparently there was a list(BLACKLIST!!LOL)of people who got some award(Did I tal about this before?).Basically there's gold,silver and bronze(Gold for 5 subs with As,Silver for 4 and Bronze for 3) for grades 10-12(don't expect my name to be there,I'm not studying hard enough).Curious George went to have a look and saw his PC buddy(not the idiotic one,but a 1st XV Rugby player)getting a silver.As I went down the list,I found this person,don't wanna name him,but matches with "Curious" with a bronze.BRONZE??!!Obviously it might look like a disappointment but hey,I don't think it's that bad.3A's,2B's and 2C's(Not failure in chinese :D),I know where I am now and where I hope to be(which is silver by the end of this year and gold by the next).Of course,I don't wanna tell my parents because they're probably gonna make a big fuss over it.....

Oh,what weres the A's,B's and C's?Chem and S.O.R were C's(I know,horrible....),Geography and English were B's(Seriously,geo a B?And only 1 person got A...),Bio,Maths B and Chinese got A's(EAT YOUR HEARTS OUT PEOPLE!!XD haha kidding.Chinese was a fluke,believe me.Did it without dictionary and technology which others use to their advantage due to "translating to english" problems)

Now that wasn't really funny.There was a guy,oriental in complexion,but his accent is somehow not(Let's presume he was born in Neanderthalia here...).And he was looking at the list(there's 2,side by side and he's looking at the other one).I think he was looking for gold medallists and suddenly he was like:"OH MY GOD!!AN ASIAN!!"My Chemistry classmate shook his head..

Now everyone,should I buy a mirror for him?He's a case of alienation at its worst.Has he ever looked at himself,I don't think so,and I sure don't wanna be him.And before I could get the mirror,can someone get me a baseball bat?

Next up,my early morning blues(I'm unhappily wearing one....)I was catching the 5.15 train on my way to a station that's a 40 minute walk away from school and one girl clubber(Kinda?I mean,those people sounded like they partied all night) was like:"You look sexy in a uniform"(I was wearing a blazer,a sweater and a tracksuit..).Flattery,wow....NOT!!Of course,being me,blank face(stone cold) as a I passed them and out the train.The others were like:"Tough going out to school early,eh?"(I was only carrying my tennis bag.My schoolbooks were few enough to fit in.)"He looks like a turtle"(With a face like mine,I don't mind.It's probably my big Wilson bag..)

This brings us to tennis.....which I hate to say I'm really tired but I've been playing for 11 straight days since last Wednesday(streak ended today!!hooray!!Just hope someone doesn't wanna hit tomorrow...)And my winning streak was just snapped on day 9.Legs were just simply crying out loud "NO MORE!!",so I figured I really need some good rest before resuming my trials(scorelines later).What's happening so far?

Open trials W 6-3 6-1 W 6-0 6-3 Behind 5-7 2nd set continuing Monday(Must rest on Sunday or it'll be day 12 and 13...)
16 trials W 6-5 (7-2)(Tiebreaker at 5-5,dunno why) L 2-6(Day 9)

And what's making me win?I'm not a superstitious person,but I do like certain shirts when playing tennis.Guess em.....Lacoste?Nike?Adidas?Reebok?Nudgee Colledge?NAH,NO WAY(especially the last one),all I need are good ol' CHMS Red House shirts :D.I just can't play without em XD.I mean,having shirts that were involved in winning a couple of medals in the past does help,right?XD.Simply love em,and hope I could wear them in the GPS season(because NC shirts and sooo plain.And did I forget to mention their shorts are soooo mini they're better as boxers?).

Back to more of tennis.Last night I just wanna have a massive break toward the end of my training session and when it ended,I was like:"10 days in a row was too much for me.."(I don't remember playing more than 7 in one go) and dad replied:"Pros do 24".YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS.It's understandable if they go 2 weeks consecutively or 365 days,but they DO HAVE TO REST SOMETIME.And even if they play 24 days in one go,they don't study for 8 hours a day,5 days a week,no?

If the night couldn't get any worse,it just did.Mum and dad were smoking at the bus stop(while I had to keep myself alive....) and it so happens another student (Grade 12) was there.And when he saw mum smoke,this is how it went:

"Can I have one as well?"(I was shocked)
(Cuts off some not ecessary lines from mum)"Are you legal?"
"Yeah,I'm 17"(Mum looks at dad,dad smiles and nods.I think smoking is legal at 16,drinks at 18)
"thanks.Your son should smoke too"(I cut off some extra lines here as well,talks about me being a minor,image stuff...etc etc)

NOW,EXCUSE ME(prepare for the bleeps),I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE GRADE 12,17 AND SMOKE,BUT DON'T TELL ME TO,BECAUSE I WILL NOT(I'm gonna make that my lifelong promise,drinking as well.Screw my chem assigment because we need to taste wine.)SMOKE NOR DRINK.YOU ARE A DISGRACE EVERYWHERE,AND YOU'RE IN A FRIGGIN UNIFORM!!I'm not just mad a him....AND MUM,WHY DID YOU HAVE TO SMOKE IN THE 1ST PLACE!!IF YOU DIDN'T,YOU WOULND'T HAVE BEEN INVOLVED IN THE IMBECILE SMOKING.IT'S YOU PARENTS THAT INFLUENCE THE YOUNGER GENERATION.LOOK AT YOUR PATHETIC SELVES!!I'M DOWN WITH COLDS AND NOW I'M FURTHER HAVING MY LUNGS POLLUTED WITH CHEMICALS.ARE YOU DUMB??!!

Ok,normally I would stop after anger was released but I'm missing giving out reviews,so here we are,4 books as well as old TV series(TIA-"This is Australia...)That had their pilots shown 3 years ago...

1)Fear Street:The Best Friend 2 (4 stars)
Summary:Phsycotic person who copycats someone in practically everything (EVERYTHING)is back to haunt her,but she was stopped,then who is on her now?
Creepy,and confusing.Like,who's who?And who's looking at who murdering who's who?And how did who's who survived who's who's actions?

2)Short Cuts(3 1/2 stars)
Summary:Bunch of students are in meida class,and somehow each boy and girl has their own happy ending.
Once again,another confusing storyline,but clearer.Almost fooled my a teacher x student XD(which never happened as teacher was assuming and reality was something else...).Bad boy and smart girl....soccer player and bully victim vying for coolest girl.....Mhmm....romance is simply weird......

3)The Crush(4 1/2 stars)
Summary:Two rival teams,two different players clash heads in trying to win the girl that has their hearts.
You have a person who's fair and a person who isn't,has a pushy dad and is willing to do anything to keep him off.Of course,honesty prevails,but didn't win the rugby game though...nor the girl...although something did happen....*sniff*....WAAHHHHHHHH!!!

4)Siggy and Amber(4 stars)
Summary:Siggy has two options:Prove Amber that there IS a ghost and risk a limb and maybe win her OR save himself and probably convince Amber that he's lying.
Pretty funny......Amber has two mums,the town has a real estate agent who lies to potential housebuyers with a wife acting as a famous local painter and Siggy's friend who makes a 500K bet with Siggy in trying to woo the girl.Story's a bit too straightforward....like all modern writers tend to have nowadays....

TV
1)30 Rock Season 1 Episode 1(4 stars) and 2 (3.5 stars)
I know,I know,3 LONG YEARS!!I wonder how did this place cover up it's image....Love Tina Fey,Tracy Morgan's crazy shouting he's a jedi....someone has haemorroid cream as a secret to a youthful face and Alec Baldwin's an idiot to try and fire everyone...

2)Secret Life Of An American Teenager(3.5-4 stars)(Can't really rate)
The only thing was counting the number of times the word "***" was used XD (Over 30),and those high school people are 15,16?
-School French Horn player(a girl) becomes ahem....Preg after having a one-night stand with a drummer playboy in band camp.Meanwhile,some boy desperately wants a girlfriend,looks at her,think she's cute,decides to ask the counsellor who's new in school to enrol him in music classes and asks her out on a date,later,both boys went eye to eye...
-Another couple:VERY FAITHFUL Christians,vow to love each other forever,marry after girl finishes medical school,quarterback boy gets a little down(because you know what boys think....)and stumbles onto playboy's current girlfriend an at the end of the episode they somehow touched lips...
-About playboy:Got girl preg,has another girlfriend,currently trying to hit on quarterback's girl.Childhood taken by father due to abuse......

I have a feeling I'm missing something here,and I think it's not the pilot...oh well,gotta find it...I'll just keep watching it(because I simply enjoy counting the number of times they use that word and laugh at the 0.02% possibility normal 15-16year old would use it)

XD anyways long one once more XD.Too much I'm afraid.Gotto go.Bye!!

Saving Me

People,I'm seriously in need of some advice here.....and I'd probably scream at my parents when I'm done with this post(waiting till dad's back.....).

Here's why:The past few days have been pretty good to me.Got past 1st IV trials(not likely to be the 1st IV though I won all my matches so far but I definitely can make it next year) as well as 16's(I'm doing 2 in case 1 of them fails).Anyone could be happy that they're still on a roll,and of course I am,but at my last period of class,I was harassed(defintely the right word...) by a bunch of brainless 16-year old goons.

Definitely not sexually(I'm currently doubting that now),BUT verbally.I'M SURE THEY HAVE NO *BLEEP*(ACTUALLY "IT'S FRIGGIN") IDEA HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO LOSE 15 YEARS OF MY MAGNIFICENT(with the last 2 being the best)LIFE IN A COUNTRY WHERE OBSCENITIES ARE VIRTUALLY ABSENT.And if you're curious enough to kill the cat and ask why did I blow my fuse,here's some parts of the conversation I remembered:

Student Formation class,teacher's not there,outside class

Idiot 1:Georgie!!!Why don't you give *name of another person* a hug?

Me:What's the point?(Raising one eyebrow)

Idiot 1:Aww,come on,Georgie,just give him one(forces me)

(I refused and pushed out)

Soon.....

Idiot 1(Biology classmate who loves sweet-talking teachers but thankfully my bio teacher is immune):Hey George,where's your bag?

Me:Tuesday is the lightest day,plus I've got a big tennis bag.You don't expect me to carry my school bag as well,do you?I mean,I have to walk from Virginia,and 2 big bags are certainly too much for me.And since Tuesday usually has the least books needed,why not place them into my tennis bag instead?After all,there's plenty of space.

Idiot 1:Well,why not carry a bag now?

Me:I prefer to leave my stuff at the dean's office and carry 2 periods of books.Once it's break time,I return to the office and switch them.That way sore shoulders won't be a problem to me.You have your own views,I have mine.

Idiot 1:Yeah..

Later........

Idiot 1(He DOES talk a lot,and that's why he gets into trouble tons of times in bio):How come you speak english so well?
(To be exact,I think I've been asked this question for like 10 times already this year.Is it because people think I'm a stereotypical Chinese who speaks english with a drooling baby accent?No offence to my fellow peers,just feel like letting all out.Doesn't include people from Brunei because your english rocks.)

Me:(*sigh*I hate to repeat the same thing 9 times all over again)English is my first language.My mum is a Filipino,whose country(true facts?)was colonised by Americans more than 100 years ago so yeahh,that's probably where I got my english from.

The convo continues,with me getting frustrated over the fact that I'm assuming these guys just wanna have me in their gang....nothing much,until......

Idiot 1:What books do you read?

Me:(being honest...)Ummm novels(I don't mention romance).I don't really enjoy schoolbooks,no idea why...but as far as I know,I love reading.

(By now two more idiots joined in)

Idiot 2:Have you read Harry Potter?

Me:Nah,I just watch the movie....

And now here's the part that ticked me off.Being the "stereotypical,dumb,perverted Australian teenager"(Australia,I officially despise you,minus anybody related to tennis),they began talking lewd stuff,beginning with HP,then progressing to internet,and EVEN FRIGGIN ASKED ME IF I EVER *bleep*(Another word for chewing,slightly altered)MYSELF.

I am SOOOOOOO depressed right now,I'm thinking whether or not to grab my racket and smash some sense into one of them(belonging to my PC).It's easily identifiable that they're either fully into sports OR delinquents.And if they're looking for company,they've just barked up the wrong tree.Why?Because the tree has a red lion,a person who is struggling to balance between school and sports.Even though I've got 3A's,3B's and a C(Note:I'm planning to make it 4A's and 3 B's by the end of year),it doesn't mean I'm gonna copy your lifestyle of gaming first,homework later(For your info,I finish my homework in school).

I guess that's it.........NOT.Chinese class has been switched to Friday just because there's only one person attending last tuesday(and it so happens teacher mentioned he's gonna have knee surgery and won't be teaching for the first few weeks).=.=Hello,in the beginning of the year I switched my tennis from Tuesday to Friday to accomodate it,now it's back to friday again??!!Any reasons??

*sigh*I don't really think I'm gonna be having an optimistic post anytime soon.New book reviews will be available if I'm not having a really bad fit...till then

Come please,I'm falling,I'm falling....
(lyric of song,not telling you to come here)

Judgement Day

"You are terminated...."

Blah,forget the Terminator saga for once.It's not the 2nd movie,but it's in fact MY judgement day,and once more,this isn't going to be such a happy post...

Dad called up yesterday,and was talking to mum,while I was eating my lunch.In the middle of it,I heard:"You come back and we'll make a decision."Now,I don't need to be a fool to know what decision is that.You guys might think I'd be glad to have him back after his long hours of work.Unfortunately,because the conversation was within earshot,I've got the answer:NOT REALLY.

I understand that he constantly criticises me for not being good enough.I bet he still doesn't get the point:"Play it because you love it".Here's one of his more frequently used quotes:"Got any points?"

=.= Points?Screw points,you're just p*ssed because you're "investing" and not getting any in return.I'm no puppet.And the word "invest" plainly shows that you're trying to manipulate me,someway,somehow....

Now,I do have points,but not at the national level yet(due to the fact that they take results from best 8 tournaments while I played like 4 so far).However,playing matches=gaining experience.It doesn't mean that you'll get better if you win.Sometimes it's when you lose when you found your greatest triumph.Currently,I've been on a good streak since my 1st tournament win(played Super league yesterday and won both my matches) but honestly I can't wait until I lose(school trials coming up,losing is most likely).Why?I get criticised when I win,I know what I have to work on,and you talk like there's no limit.When I lose,I can hold up my head,think of what was good,what can work,what I have to change,because the truth is that I'm not in Brunei anymore,it's a new ballgame.

Sure,I could hit balls hard like I used to,but here's different.It's a battle of minds,no longer the battle of power.Dad was like:"Whack him left and right,make him run"Now dad,what you were saying is PURE OVERKILL.Sure,you can still insist that you're "one of my coaches".Truth is,what's new that I can learn from you?You have the right principle,but there's others who can open up my mind even further.

Now,I'm not saying I don't need him anymore,but when I was at the Gold Coast,one coach taught me stuff I never knew before.In response to make the opponent run left and right(I said that because that's what I've heard tons of times and I'm practically sick of hearing it),the coach asked:"How are you going to do that?".Now,that I have no answer.It was hard to swallow,but he told me:"You're not playing tennis,you're just hitting tennis balls".

That was a shocker to me,and throughout the next few days he showed me some examples of people in tournaments who play "tennis"."Tennis," he says "is like a chessgame.You think 2 or 3 moves ahead,what you're gonna do,what shot he's gonna make,and how you're gonna win the point.The trick to that is patterns.You use the patterns to set up the play just like you want it to be,and that way you will win the point."

Until now I still have difficulty creating patterns.In fact,I don't even know what pattern did I use.Sure,since I've been here,I know what I've gained and what I've lost.I play more backhands(used to slice a lot,and still do,but mostly to get the guy on the run),more forehands and more volleys.6 months ago,my coach at school noted that I wouldn't even dare to go to the net to finish the point(although I have good groundstrokes).That resulted in me playing an extra ball the opponent hits back as he/she has time to recover(volleying on the other hand shortens recovery time).Now that I'm going to the net more often,I'm more unpredictable(People know me as a complete baseliner and a coward at the net XD).It doesn't matter if I lost the point when I'm at the net,because like my coach says:"They're gonna wonder what you're gonna do next,what ball they're gonna use,which gives them more to think and less to react".

Dad can say that I'm better when I was younger all he wants,but I know now that I'm better than I was,someway.Here the level's higher,and not only I had to step up,but to change.You could go BLAM!BLAM!BLAM!,but you'll get a "HOW DID HE GET THAT??!!" most of the time.You can say I'm more powerful than they are and I should have won the match,but you don't understand my characteristics,my strengths,my weaknesses(though you think you know) nor those I'm playing.

And last but not least,who's playing?I know I should be thankful enough that I still can play,but don't cross the line.There's one,and I'm not surprised if you didn't see it......And by the way,don't use your bad knee as an excuse,because how'd you play table tennis at your construction site?

Ok I shouldn't have written too much because I still have more to say(not tennis..).Oh well,some other day.Tennis trials for Grade 11(*sigh* I'm too young...)are on tomorrow or tuesday(Not gonna whine just because they're older,they're better.I know they are,but the new kid on the block's coming up with a few tricks) which trials for the 1st IV(4 best players in school) are on Wednesday and Friday morning(slim chance,though 2nd IV is most likely where I'll end up,it's up to whether who's having a good day,a bad day or a GREAT day) so yeahhs.Dad's gonna come back on Wednesday morning and I'm not gonna tell him about the trials.He's gonna be like:"How come you aren't in the 1st IV?You can whack these guys down here,show them what you're made of.How come you couldn't??!!" Blah,GET REAL.There's others better than me,so I have to be content with playing catch up to them.I mean,patience,just like you said,no?Look who's not now?

If Everyone Cared

SO SORRY FOR THE LONG BREAK.I was kind of busy with school stuff.Don't worry about me having some emotional outburst today :D because so far,school's good,life's ok and the movies I watch kept me in a good mood.THERE IS something I don't particularly like,it's just I'm kind of fed up with it(not angry,just rolling my eyes around my socket).

Now,school.2nd semester started on Monday and I don't really like my haircut this time...It's kind of like Arnie-style(not fully defined).And to make things worse,I'VE GOT PHOTO TAKING.NOOOOOOOOO!!I never look good on camera.So yeahh,I practically didn't show my teeth,and for those who know me well as kind of a sad person,I think I gave a smile,not so wide,and with my eyes calm and a little twinkle....I WON'T PUT IT ON MY DISPLAY PICTURE ON MSN!!!Sorry :D.Besides that,school's under renovation,and now my classes are all over the place.More exercise=goody Less time to talk=Grr...Not going much to the library nowadays...feel like I'm done with romance novels (for now) and just trying to stay in shape...

I'll probably skip the nonsense details and move on to the next thing I'm gonna talk about:My polls.Good thing:They're gonna be more often Bad thing:Some of you might won't like it.

Pretty short,eh?Well,I'm going straight to the latest movie(s) I watched.Ok,I want you to guess:Eminem's film debut(AND ONLY ONE TO DATE if I'm not wrong),has my favourite Lil' Slim Shady song(Lose Yourself),critics gave it good ratings,opened in 2002,grossed U$51 million in it's first week,2nd highest ever for a music artist(I know it's a 2nd in something) and contains a good cast as well as various cameos including Xzibit and LL Cool J,and I think Will Smith as well(it looked like him in the 1st scene).Now,DON'T LOOK YET,because you don't know the answer...Clue:It's a highway connected to Detroit.*sigh*Don't know?OK,I give up :D

1)8 Mile (4.5/5)
Starring:Eminem(a.k.a Marshall Mathers III),Brittany Murphy,Kim Basinger
The plot:A young man tries to make ends meet (for his mum who's getting evicted) in the mean streets of Detroit,taking part in rap battles,being manipulated,finding out and dealing with it,as well as finding love and desperately holding on to the one thing he doesn't want to give up:music.

The film is STRICTLY for mature audiences(I count,don't I?) and by that I mean bad word are mouthed,bad examples(guns)and a little racism,surprisingly not towards the main targets(you know....)

Honestly,this is the polar opposite of everybody's favourite(and also most ridiculous?)cheer up musical,HSM.Dark,realistic(Detroit City yooo) and tense,it's wayy better than any musical in history(by history I mean from 1970's onwards.Take that,John Travolta...XD).Eminem is SUPERB playing the main character,Rabbit(hip-hop...) who bad-mouths(I forgot to mention the f-word was heard for like 100 times or so from everyone in the film),chills out and jerks out the tears in the whole film.In case you guys didn't notice,the whole film was like trying to set uo the making of "Lose Yourself"(no.34 most influencial song of all time and No.1 since 2000s).Brittany Murphy is EXTREMELY SAUCY(ahem...) as Alice,who aspires to be a book writer and wants to pursue her career in New York.Alice met Rabbit at the factory where he was working and at one time he was mad at his boss when the boss refused his offer to show Alice around.As a result,Rabbit flashed a middle finger(as well as his thumb) and it so happens Alice saw it,misunderstood,and returned the gestureXD.Strange 1st meeting.I don't like to say this,but she DID something with Eminem in the factory AS WELL AS Eminem's friend-turned enemy gang member in some broadcasting office(not shown,of course,but acted out).But still,sporting a rocking hairstyle as well as a "catch me if you can" attitude,Murphy kind of caught me offguard(she tends to be in comedies).And Kim Basinger:WOW!Great comeback from the veteran actress.Angelina Jolie,watch out XD....

From start to finish I was anticipating the best,and the best was better than what I had expected.Like,in the 1st rap battle,he choked(part of the song lyrics as well) and was booed.In the end,they others tried to make him choke again,and this time....he gave them a taste of their own medicine.The enemy gang mainly focused on his friend,who,dumbly enough,took a pistol out and fired a warning shot during an earlier scene which showed a fight between the gangs and shot himself in the *bleep*.

The ending was by far one of the best.Not the love story you hoped for.Alice left,but not before watching Rabbit beat Papa Doc(enemy gang champ)to win the rap competition.Rabbit's gained the favour of his boss,mom's not evicted as she won U$3200 in Bingo....As for Rabbit,his friends wondered after he won the battle whether he'll participate in music again.The response.......*music starts*he turns around,friends were silent,but understood,peace out.....no more music.....black screen...."If you had........one shot.........one opportunity.....to seize everything you ever wanted.....One moment....would you capture it?....OR JUST LET IT SLIP...."You know,I finished watching it at 2am in the morning as was still super-hyped(coffee....)

Anyways enough of my long bad review which was supposed to be interesting,andddddd......WAIT WAIT!!GRRRR!!I suppose you guys know that this is something I might be really good at,but I think it's time interhouse becomes history....Yep,it's on this year here,AND IT'S COMPULSORY...*sigh*Time to don the shoes once more?Or leave it for good,just give some bad performance...hmm....

Last but not least,I have to say I AM WORRIED about the situation of the flu pandemic which is currently affecting my ex-country(doesn't mean I'll accept Aussies here...).I've just got some news that one of my favourite cub scouts(I'd love to call them my kids),Mark,apparently was infected and is currently in the hospital for treatment.All I wanna say is get well soon.I've never seen you do any wrong around,buddy,and I'm sure you'll be blessed with safety.To all the others,stay strong.

Anyways,that's all for now,I'm gonna practiced tennis at 6.30am tomorrow so I'm gonna crash.Godspeed.

Curtain Call?

Ok I've just finished my tournament,I'm darn tired,and I crashed in the afternoon before regaining consciousnessat 8.30pm for my dinner.

In case you guys would want to know how'd I go,here's the results(with scores XD)

Doubles
Friday Quarters:6-3 7-5
Sunday Semis:Lost 6-4 1-6 Tiebreaker 4-7 (No 3rd set,either their rules or someone just can't stand the heat XD)

Technically,I'm not much of a doubles specialist,but I do try and provide as much assistance as I can.Plus,it's a first to have a partner that talks MORE than I do XD.We had a good time even though we lost.I don't really think we played badly.Partner usually just chips the ball back in play but for today,I told him I don't really mind if he took a swipe at it and it went out.After all,it's well worth the try XD.Ain't got no shame doing that whie being underdogs vs the 2nd seeds (I played one of them in my singles) yooooooooo!

Psst,I think I made some parents raise their eyebrows because I was hitting the ball towards the body of the volleyer while receiving.After a few successful attempt,our opponents were more than happy to stand back and NOT get "hurt" XD.I didn't hit anyone,but I was thinking they'd put a racket and block it somehow instead of dodging it.I believe they've never encountered someone that "dangerous" LOL.And what'd I get?One of them tried to return the favour and nearly took my head off.Ball was out XP.

I know I'm not supposed to ask,but am I going a little overboard on the "aiming for the volleyer" thing?You can post you comments on the cbox :D Hope to hear.Anyways besides that,has anybody heard of the "short deuce" rule?It's like after the 1st deuce,someone has the advantage and loses the point,creating a second deuce.Now whoever wins this point gets the game,not having the advantage.WHAT KIND OF RULE IS THAT??!!I've been playing tournaments for like 5-6 years and I've NEVER HEARD OF IT,TILL THIS WEEK.Blah,it's just as bad as the "double bounce" rule I encountered during my munchkin days.
Note:"deuce rule" plays an important part in my singles XD

Now,for the singles(note:I'm unseeded because I'm new XD)
Friday Round of 16:6-3 6-1
Talk about bad starts.It was kind of hard to adjust to synthetic courts.I mean,I thought it was hard,but it definitely didn't felt like it.Never got past the round of 16,now's my chance.It's not easy to get past someone who serves hard and either gets it in or double faults.His string snapped as well.Nice guy though,told me in 3 tourneys he lost to players who won them XD.Could it be......

Saturday Quaters:6-0 6-2
1st quarterfinal appearance and somone forgot to told me the guy's a lefty(Note:my record was 1-5 before tournament,now's 3-5).The only thing I had to do was make him move.Did it well in the 1st set,and found myself 0-2 down in the second(I presume I just wanna catch my breath)Before reeling off the next 6 not-so-easy games.2nd set was interesting plainly because there were quite some exchanges in contrast to the 1st which the guy was kind of shellshocked(Nobody know me remember?:D).ON TO SUNDAY!!

Sunday Semis
6-1 6-2
Good thing I got my quarters done and dusted quickly as my would-be opponent was playing on the other side of the fence.SHOCKING!!NO.1 SEED GONE!!What did I say?Erm, 2 things:Yes because I've never beaten No.1 seed and and I hate lefties and NOOOOO,where's the 3rd set?6-1 6-7(5) 9-7 and No.1 seed went out,while the other one was kinda pumped up.Beating 1st seed=Hot favourite?Answer:Waking up in a Sunday morning at 5.15 am certainly puts me in a bad mood.And...HE FELL FOR MY MENTAL TRICK!!!I don't like the "short deuce"rule,so I just asked if I could play the "long euce".Said he didn't mind...it was his call,could have said no if he wanted to(I might argue because I prefer the "true" rules of the game".So,in you come,out you shall go.Got a little "Dementieva's syndrome"(Made it up XD).Before closing out the match.FINALS!!YAY!!Against No.2 seed in singles(who so happens to be the one I played against in doubles semis)who took out his partner (yes,his partner.Kissed and made up pretty quickly XD)6-4 6-3 to set himself up(again...)as the favourite(I just love being the underdog.No seeding=No knowledge of player :D)for the finals.

Sunday Finals
Well,whaddaya know.I'm in the finals for the 1st time after 4 tournaments(1st quarters and semis too XD)and up against the No.2 seed.

Advantages:Nobody knows me(Some were left jaws out from looking at my serve XD).I've got nothing to lose.I know I'm better(yes,I do.Was a little wrong though...)and I've got a plan.I also played less matches (2 to his 3 for the day)

Disadvantages:I'm shorter(happens all the time now...),the underdog(loving the tag),he's on a high after winning his 3 matches while I lost one of mine.

I rarely get beaten because of my fitness,but my mental states kind of let me down a bit and that tend to be the cause of losing.So then,1)More rest vs more matchplay experience.2)Seeding confidence vs nothing-to-lose 3)Serve vs return

Honestly,I was surprised myself when I had a hard whack on my serves...even more stunning was HE GOT THEM BACK!!Wowwie,I just did a roughly 100mph(I'd say around 150kph which is like around 95)and he smacked it right back to me.A long day it is....

He bettered me in ALMOST every aspect of the game.Groundstrokes,which were my best allies,were outclassed by his.Tried chip and charge,he hit a winner.Got him on the run,he got me on the backfoot.*sigh*....

I played a Sam Stosur kind of the,you know,heavy forehands,almost no backhand,plenty of volleys(VOLLEYS ARE MY CHINK)and probably it DID pay off a little bit.But that wasn't enough for the win.I did mention "almost",didn't I?Well,that "almost" was the serve.I hate to admit this,but he has "Dementieva's syndrome" XD while I'm pretty much "A-Rod" mood today(emotionless).The serve made the difference.

The score?Ummmm....Broke him for 2-0 in the 1st set.....Broke back for 2-1...held serves for 3-2,4-3 and 5-4....He was serving to stay in the set and probably there was pressure on him and he double faulted to hand me the set 6-4.

2nd set:BROKEN IMMEDIATELY,NOOOO!!!Broke his serve again X 1-1,Went ahead 2-1,and broke again for 3-1,lost my serve for 3-2,broke again(quite a lots of breaks :D)for 4-2 and held for 5-2 LEAD!!!Joy?Nah,he held his serve 5-3

So it all comes down to this.Never won a tourney in 2-3 years,not gonna let it slip now...Drop volleyed for 15-0.Whuuutttt??!!He still hits winners after all this time??!!(I counted like over 20 XD I don't think I even have 5 LOL)15-15.Got the next point for a 30-15.And CARELESSLY smashed a ball like 1-2 inches long.GAH!!Coulda have 2 match points there.He gave a point back thanks to a close call for 40-30.

I've never closed out with an ace before XD,but I wouldn't wanna do something reckless.Got the serve in,set the forehand,came into the net,volleyed,and when does he ever stop trying.....another clean winner for a deuce.Played safe on this point,just placing the ball good enough to keep him moving.Out ball,Advantage....

Dumped 1st serve in the net,and I mishit my 2nd serve(nerves?).Went in though XP and play on!!BAckhand crosscourt towards me,backhand down the line to his forehand.HE hit crosscourt,so did I.Crosscourt again,I took a big step(I wonder if I've got my stretching fixed XD)and hit a low crosscourt back to his forehand once more.Reached for hit,made it lower,but my low ball earlier just went over the net,could it even get over?

Nah,6-4 6-3 was the scoreline.Normally,people would be jumping or smiling or all that sort of stuff,but was I happy?

No I wasn't.Somehow this past week I know I've made bad decisions on some stuff,and somehow dad JUST MADE IT WORSE.I wouldn't want to point the finger on him.But I heard from mum talking to others like:"I've never seen him this aggresive.His father already gave a warning.If he gets past the quarters,maybe he can continue.."

WHAT WAS THAT??!!That was a gutless quote.Do I have to remind them that I've barely been heere 6 months,played less than 5 tourneys,adjusting life here and TRYING TO COPE WITH WHAT I LOST??!!AND DON'T FORGET I DONT EVER RECALL YOU WINNING A TOURNEY.You can't just take away what I have.I've gone this far in life only to have it stripped bare just for you to continue your own pursuit.IS MONEY THAT POWERFUL??!!

You know,I'm not even close to being happy right now.I'm not even an adult yet,and I know I'm not supposed to whine about anything,but I'm just so discouraged to find that I've got no support.Why let me go on when you're gonna cut it off soon anyway?THAT'S TORTURE.IF YOU'VE GOT *bleep*,TALK TO ME,ONE ON ONE!DON'T JUST WAIT FOR THE MOMENT YOU'VE BEEN WAITING FOR.

I don't know what to do now....I'm terribly distraught...No light on the road,no siblings I could talk to at night.I had to beat my heart out just to try and cry,but those tears wouldn't come out.I've had enough,trophies don't mean anything,winning doesn't mean anything.There's no meaning to it when there's no one to console you when you're feeling down.....No meaning.....

The Fallen Rose

Right,another short post again,due to the fact that I'm still in through to the semis on singles and doubles.

I'll just have Twilight's review AS WELL AS "The Princess Diaries"(Yes people,I DO watch movies NOT REALLY for male audiences,don't get me wrong) AS WELL AS HP and my depression returning once more....

Twilight (3.5/5)
SOMEBODY EXPLAIN THE FOLLOWING:
1)Eric's an Eastern
2)Mike's weird
3)Bill's dad is TOO YOUNG
4)Edward's skin has diamonds....(Really,shining skin can be made my lubricants such as oil...)
5)Laurent's TOO FRENCH?(and too young+too skinny XP)

I could probably list down a whole lot of ideas that I disagree with,enough to cover the front of a newspaper,but I'm not the director,so I should be less critical....

The first hour or so of the movie was TOTALLY,AWESOMELY AWFUL!!!I'm not gonna boast or anything,but I'd say that probably even ordinary people can act better than that..

Let's start with Eric,Mike and Tyler.I know it shows multiculturalism,but what's with the "HEY GIRL!!" or the usage of words like "baby" and trying to be cool all the time?GET REAL!!Sometimes proper introductions are needed,not some straightforward,out of the blue "You must be the new girl,yatta yatta yatta".Summary for the trio:3/10

Now to the Cullens:Carlisle's too young(seriously,Esme looked older),Alice's too cool(YES,THERE IS A LIMIT TO COOLNESS),Jasper's too weird(I get the American Revolution look,but speak up...),Emmett's fine but Rosalie's (get this) NOT CURVY ENOUGH.Ok,I'm not telling women to get skiiny and reach size 0,but it's hard to imagine how she turned heads during her living days.IN the baseball game,Alice's pitch was kinda funny.Good pose,bad pitch=not realistic enough(am I giving too much criticism?)
Summary:5/10

No comment about Bella....average acting...

I only began to enjoy the movie after the fighting sequence....the ending wasn't too shabby,but it almost failed to save the franchise...

The Princess Diaries (4/5)
Alright,I guess you people need explanations for why I'm watching this.Truth is,I'm a little soft(little's the word right?not "absolute",no?) when it comes to watching romance stuff.

Unlike Twilight,I loved it all the way :D except times when Mandy Moore starts *bleep*ing around.*sigh* If the ending were extended,I woulda cried XD

Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone(4/5)
How long has it been?8 years....And now that I've watched it again,there's a funny feeling to it.No comments,because my time's almost up.

Now,as for my behaviour,you cold call it "loli-shota".It's similar to childish,and makes people look kinda cute XD.DON'T GET ME WRONG AGAIN....I'm NOT a g*y,I'm just a little loli-shota who loves romance movies and is NOT HANDSOME OR CHARMING,BUT MORE OF A HUNCHBACK.

You know,I was really happy,REALLY FRIGGIN HAPPY,when I began writing once more after I finished my match.I was really in the moment......then I just slammed my lights off and my pencil down.

Why?Dad's message:"Good".GOOD??!!WHAT ON EARTH WAS THAT??!!To me,it sounds as if I'm not supported at all....WHAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF PLAYING THEN??!!Honestly,I don't know,either I feel better alone or I just have to wait until someone comes along and changes me once more....

Irreversible

Ok short post today because I gotta sleep soon and mum's gonna blow a VEI 8..

I'll be offline for a couple of nights due to tennis tournament so yeahh...Will miss you all XD.

I'll give a review for Twilight the movie(WHAT??!!) in my next post....

Now for the short main thing

I've been going through some forums recently,posting my own views regarding topics,and my poll was oe of them.No,I'm not gonna kill myself or anything(I admit I did felt like it sometimes,don't worry),it's just to see how you all think about it.I'm gonna have more debatable polls sometime in the future,so yeahh..

Anyways,gtg now

Blood,Sweat and Tears

Okay people,some of you may have seen it,some of you may have not.

HISTORY has been made.In tennis,I mean.Yes,Roger Federer overtook Pete Sampras for a record 15th Grand Slam title last night,here at 3.30am,beating Andy Roddick in 5 sets 5-7 7-6 7-6 3-6 16-14.

For the record,I was watching EVERY point of the match,and actually wanted A-Rod to win.Nevertheless,the great man himself and luck on his side broke A-Rod when he needed to,the final game.

I'll be honest.Roddick HAD NOT been broken the whole match,and it was really a whole lot of bad luck that cost him.What could anyone say about that?I mean,it's basically fate.He had set point at 6-2 in the 2nd set tiebreaker and that changed everything.Life sucks sometimes,but what I know is that there was a message at where the players entered the Centre Court(which I do NOT remember it clearly):"If you meet with triumph and disaster,be sure to treat those two imposters just the same."

Who couldn't possibly feel bad for Andy right there?I think it's not really fair to allow one man to parade around the court while the other sits in his chair,practically rueing how close he came to winning.Both men were the winners today.The score doesn't say it,but the people do.

Now,those who don't really like Federer,here's some records the broke and tied :D:15 Grand Slams (most ever),No.1 ranking(1st ever player in Open Era to reclaim that ranking),7th consecutive Wimbledon Grand Slam appearance and 60th title,equalling my idol,Andre Agassi.

It was kind of hard for me to swallow,even as a spectator.My eyes were welling up,but I was glad enough to observe this kind of special moment.For those who don't really want Fed to win,I'll probably cheer you up with some records not reached yet:D

1)Definitely not "Youngest ever"(Boris Becker at 15-17)
2)No "Oldest Ever" in Open Era (33 when Agassi won Aussie Open)
3)Doesn't have Olympic singles gold(Take note Rafa has it)
4)6 Wimbledons to Sampras's 7
5)Calendar Grand Slam(Rod Laver)

And yes,he's considered "The Greatest Ever" by many already.To me,well,he is the greatest ever,in his own era.I believe each era has it's own greatest ever,but who is the true great is up to anyone to decide.

Well that's practically it.Do you know what actually makes him one of the best?Hope.

Many people don't really understand the true ingredient of a tennis player.It's not necessary to be a child prodigy for anything to happen.People tend to misunderstand "hope".Parents tend to think that their child MUST win to achieve greatness.I WILL say that this is wrong,this is not true.Take for example,parents who tend to ignore their child's words and insists on their own.That is called expectations,not hope.It's heartbreaking enough for the child to be pushed around,and parents think he/she's not practicing because he/she doesn't show any interest,and tend to force their offspring to practice,thinking that it's the best for them to do so.

They don't know what caused the child to stop.In fact,they probably WON'T EVEN ADMIT they are the cause.They DON'T EVEN KNOW they are the cause,they just go on with the "been there,done that" mentality that is SOOOO IRRITATING.

It's just that fine line that separates success from failure.3 words:Expectations,wish and hope.Those 3 words,slightly different in meaning,yet makes a large difference in life.Questions that start with "Who","When" or "What" are expectations.The people who asked expect the answers,not hope for it.

Take for instance,test results.I HATE to write this down but it's ok if you skip it because I'm really not in a good mood right now.

I had my results back about 2 weeks ago and there was this simple comment from dad:"That's bad".I wouldn't really agree or disagree in this matter because my religion DID drop while the rest were either maintained or upped slightly.However,that was A COMMENT OF EXPECTATION.Why couldn't there be a sense of OPTIMISM??!!It's really not wise to put in pessimism into the comments when someone's already been pounded wih it and doesn't realise how bad it's become.To rub more salt to the wounds,he added:"Your school result's bad,your tennis isn't improving much.Instead it's becoming worse,I'm paying lots of money for this...If you don't get any better,I'll probably just slowly pull it out of your schedule..".It's easy enough to say,but there's SO MUCH things that adults tend to overlook.If it's worse,what's worse?What's better?

And what is the response?This is NOT RIGHT:"You don't have your fast serve and your kick serve and now you've got the slice serve.Your backhand's pretty bad."And what's in the comment?Expectations.The person expects the player to have it and be good at it.

Take a look at this comment:"Try to fix your serve up a little bit.Add more varieties,spin or more pace to it and you'll be fine.Also,try to work on your backhand a little bit more."What do you find in it?

I know I'm pretty much going too deep into this simple matter,but I'm feeling really down low at the moment.After going to sleep at 4am and waking up at 1.30pm in the afternoon,I felt like going out for a practice,feeling really good,believing in myself that I could be there.

Then mum asked
"When are you going out to practice?"

That put me off straightaway.There's no point in practice when there's no hope on me.....I think it's probably time to call it quits.You know,hanging up the racket.I'm pretty fragile,and I probably could break at any time....

SW19

Back again!!Yes,it's getting more and more frequent for me to post nowadays.It's mainly just the holidays and I'm doing nothing but compter,tennis and TV.Well,today,I'd be combining all three right here:Using the computer to talk about Wimbledon which I'm currently watching on television XD.

For those who don't really follow tennis,Wimbledon is one of the four Grand Slams in tennis and is undoubtedly one of the most prestigious tournaments ever(being around since the 1880's).If this post were to be about Wimbledon,I could seriously babble on and on about it XD.I'd say it's definitely a dream to play there,being one of the four Grand Slams.In fact,it's te one tournament I REALLY hope to play in when I'm a senior(long way to go).

Now,what's happening in Wimbledon so far?No rain(1st time in history),new roof and that Swiss guy(Federer XD) chasing a record 15th Grand Slam(beating Pete Sampras's count of 14).

Awww,Federer's going to win again?Well,for those who hope not,I'm half-with you XD.Well,history's on the line here,sometimes it's just gotta be appreciated.In the meantime,I'll just rant along about the players that could beat Federer.

9)Juan Martin Del Potro
Lost in 5 against Fed in French.Dang the NERVES!!
What happened?Lost to Hewitt in 3 sets in the 2nd round(heck yeahh!!)
If played Federer:Best chance=Lost in 3

8)Fernando Verdasco
I think he'd stop worrying about his looks and start getting better.Just can't seem to beat players above his ranking of 8.
What happened?Lost to Ivo "The Bomber" Karlovic in the 4th round
If vs Federer:Best chance=Lost in 3

7)Jo-Wilfred Tsonga
WOOOOO!!TSONGA TSUNAMI!!Too bad it's not on hardcourt...
What happened?Lost to "The Bomber"(same person again....)in the 3rd round
If vs Federer:Best chance=Lost in 4

6)Ivo Karlovic
XD The Bomber himself.REALLY.It's actually a bore to watch him because he only just serves XD.Problem is:Stick your racket out,get the ball in and you'll win the point LOL.
What happened?Lost to Fed in quarters in 3
If he played Fed when Roger was "normal",he could possibly won in 4 sets.Ivo needs to work on his shots and not relying too much on his serve(more entertaining that way XD)

5)Tommy Haas
Surprise package once more....beat Novak Djokovic(getting tired?) to meet Federer in semis.Tommy's kind of like a prototype Federer XD.Yummy,someone has a chance here :D
Hopefully:Haas in 5 sets(30%)
Probable realistic scenario:Federer in 4(70%)
Give or take 10%

4)Novak Djokovic
Honestly,can't beat Federer,not even in hope.....
What happened?Lost to Haas in 3 in quarters
If vs Federer:Lost in 4

3)Andy Murray
GGGRRRRREEEAAATTTTT SCOTS!!!He does have a good chance actually.He's in the semis as well,against my no.2 pick Andy Roddick
If vs Federer:Murray or Federer in 4 or 5 sets (45% for Murray)
Really,anything could happen for my top 3 picks

2)Andy Roddick
:D Best chance of the semi-finalists to beat Feder in my opinion.Problem is he lost 3 times in the finals to that Swiss guy.Times might change.Beat Hewitt in 5 set epic last night(marvelous,love the match,a bit upset at the outcome XD).
If vs Federer:Either players in 4 or 5 sets(50% chance)

1)Lleyton Hewitt
COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!Back from a hip surgery and played really well.Too bad Roddick outclassed him in quarters *sniff*.Beat Del Potro and then Radek Stepanek before going down to A-Rod
If vs Federer:Either in 3-5 sets(55% for Hewitt)

I don't really bother about the women's draw.I miss Henin and Sharapova's out.Newcomer Melanie Oudin's a new one to watch.Out of the 4 semifinalists(Safina,Dementieva and the Williams),I have a feeling it's either Dementieva's time
or another Williams win(More likely Serena).Safina's not good enough really.....

Doubles?I'd go for Bryan brothers or any US players in mens and Sam Stosur and Renae Stubbs from Aussie in womens.

That's all folks for this nonsense edition of Life,Love,Truth n Heartbreaks XD.

You know,I do have one post I'd like to write on,but I'm not fully angry enough yet....It's REALLY depressing....