Relapse

I don't feel too good....

Here I am posting at 6am in the morning and my mum's gonna wake up anytime soon and it's not a good thing....

I can't really sleep because the room felt stuffy,so might as well drop by with another post from an unexpectedly silent month....

I've checked another tournament draw(I have 3 in 2 weeks,this one's the 2nd one) and I WAS NOT surprised to find my name in the top half.I mean,HOW MANY FRIGGIN TIMES DO I HAVE TO LOSE TO THE TOP SEED??!!Yes people,if I win my round of 16 match and it's a showdown,but there's a catch:I lost to that guy twice already this year.Third time's the charm?

Statistics:
Number of singles tournament joined:5
Number of times knocked out by a seeded player:3(one was a round robin which I finished 3rd and winners qualify only and I won one tournament)
Number of Times lost to the top seed:2
Seeding of the other loss:4

So tomorrow's d-day,and I'm kinda feeling a little bit down,trying not to think of anything else and trying to focus,but some things just kinda keep coming back and I guess I'll have to bear with it(Including the "I want it my way" dad)and think rationally.I mean,I've come to the age where I don't believe everything my folks say are right.Example in tennis,coach tells me to do this and do that,so I make my adjustments,then dad comes back and says it's not right,yatta yatta yatta.Oh puh-leeze,it's me who's playing here,and who sent me to coaching anyways.I wanted it,you wanted,and yet you tried to replace it with your mindset.What's this?A day-care centre?C'mon,don't come back and spenrd a week ruining my peace and leave for the next 3 and come back,repeating the same process over and over.It feels like you just forced us here and dumped us for your work.Nice,need a universal remote like "Click"?Fast forwarding to you promotion a year later?Then another 10?And found yourself CEO when you're having an extra flabby tongue?

Anyways its getting more dangerous by the minute.My current favourite in music is "Beautiful" by Eminem.Yes,there's the "traditional" swearing and once more I have to say that it's a change of pace from Slim,real sombre.... epecially the last few lines.

"To the rest of the world,God gave you a gift.Put in on,be yourself man,be proud of who you are.And no matter what happens,don't let anyone tell you that you ain't beautiful"

Reaching out for you,
George