Same ol' thing, brand new day..

Dad's still insane.....parents don't get the fact that they're not the ones playing.....very screwed up head right now....Actually almost served one at his knee when he wasn't looking.....Will post plenty of "Best and worst of the decade" lists in the next few days..

Georgie

T'is no longer a season for me to be jolly....

Actually, I have lots of things to say right now, but I'll just vent out the TNT that I currently have in my system.

 Mostly, it's about dad.If his money talk wasn't enough,he repeats the same story over again.Talks about how much earned and spent,jobs at Mac(and I thought he got smarter,.....),talks with his friends over the phone and mostly included me as a "waste of money" and last but not least, gave me 3 months in tennis.WTF(There,I used it.Just felt I had to..),2 years,1 year and now 3 months,you certainly have your mind rewired every time.He had an argument with mum which annoyed me in bed..And called me out past midnight just to give me some "emomoneytalk" about his life.Blah,so much stress was in my system I couldn't be bothered to shed a tear like I used to.It no longer works on me, and that same thing happened in watching the movie(just posted the review).enjoyed it,but didn't divert me from my main goal.

Yes, and today he's getting a car so he could bring me out to court.And 2 days ago he actually said he wanted to play against me.He continued on,boasting about how his dad booted him out of the table tennis team(Gramps was a state coach) and he came back and "killed" every one of gramp's students.Honestly, I don't really care if I were gramps,dad, but you getting kicked out tells me something.And if you even dare to step on the court with me on the other end, I might not guarantee your safety.

Your use of the word "kill" is more of a sign that you're one sick man. I don't like that word. And that's why if you really are gonna play against me today, I'm more than happy enough to bust your knees (he's had surgery there..) and make you play until you have found the right answer to my question: "What makes a sportsman continue to play?". Yes, I wouldn't be surprised if most of you, like "dad" would reply that the desire to win is the one. However, I have my own opinion. I mean, why does someone of no ranking or a pro who's in the 1000's continue to play, even if there's not much prizemoney or they can't get past the first round in some big tournaments?Surely it can't be winning that keeps em going,because they don't win much.And if they don't win much, then the desire to win is sapped out of them, and there wouldn't be any point in playing.

I reckon it has something to do with love for the game. One musn't think of winning. He/she should be glad that they've got to where they are and no matter what happens, avoid the temptation of wins in favour of the love for the game.

But it's hard to change someone. While I stand by this principle,mum and dad are trying to force me their own because that's what they think I should be focused on :winning. Two words: ****you (not sure if it's the "f" word...). They're expecting wins,wins and more wins,and now have lost sight of how I come to play this sport.Yes, they might be true, but the roots shouldn't be cut or the plant will die..

There's actually more...Dad pressing me to get a scholarship(my grades are solid, but I know I can do it.This country on the other hand.....Gah,you know,skin tones.....),but I'm done for now.Apologies for not saying anything to you guys this season, but I'll try to send something to everyone (via e-mail..).For now, I'm h*ll-bent on getting dad straight,or I'll just bust his knees and not let him drive the car until he find the answer.if he doesn't,he's probably not gonna see me much longer..

Countdown

The first is always the best, and every other time is worse than the last.Being first and last, welcome to the world where you'd better off being nothing..

You step on court,you're a hundred percent focused.You play your game,ignoring anything that happens outside the court.You don't want any distractions,and get annoyed when it happens.You're losing,but you don't lose your cool.A calm mind is needed at times like these.Even so, you still lose.At any moment when you step out of the court, during or after the match, you will lose your concentration.The adrenaline rush is gone, so has the edge, and you lose focus.Game, set, match to your opponent.

That's what happened yesterday. I know that I could have won, but I opted for the toilet break at 2-3 down on serve (when I gotta go,I gotta go...).All of a sudden,I stepped back on court, and 3 double faults came....

Too bad,I made my choice, but that's how it is. Tennis is as complex as any other sport.Each has their own opinions.I chose mine, and I don't think it's a wrong one.Besides, it's not like it's right or wrong,it's simply our own choices.Don't like it, then get used to it,don't argue that yours is correct(unless you're a radical pragmatist...)

*sigh*Slept for like 14 hours from 5pm-7am without getting dinner.Dad's coming back today, looks like I'm gonna have to get through another bad week.What a nice Christmas mood indeed....

Georgie

Me 1 , Sick Bastard 0

Very very very bad mood today, would be willing to shout at someone for a change...and yes, I swore =.= Like so badly, just for the price of winning this battle

As you can see, so far the morning is not of my liking, with the ever pushy idiot bossing around like Hitler. Good thing is I can't get any yet, and screw him

"If I drop dead,who would support both of you?"
RATHER SEE YOU DO THAT AND LEAVE ME TO STARVE, MONEYEYES

And he told me to smile, blah blah blah when going for a job
TWO WORDS FOR THAT AND A WHOLE LOTTA MORE: SO FAKE!!YOU CAN SEE BY MY FACE THAT I'M NOT IN THE MOOD AND YET SMILE??!!WHAT AM I, YOUR TV WITH YOU HAVING A REMOTE?!!

Later at the McCafe "I know you're a Gen Y"
BLAH BLAH, STOP COMPARING GENERATIONS,FOOL!THE TIME WHERE YOU CAN JUST RUSH TO THE COUNTER AND GET A JOB IS ALMOST PRACTICALLY OVER!!

Yes, and he did bought some food and drinks, but not easy to calm me. Didn't took the burger and threw the orange juice (a waste I know, but it's carbonated. Still,it's a waste....)

And now "I give you one year for tennis.It's not for casual"
EXCUSE ME, ARE YOU DOUBTING ME??!!

The whole day has been nothing but $,$ and more crappy $.*sigh* Oh well, newspapers say that students actually handle better.TAKE THAT!!

Mad Georgie

Extra,extra

Fine, I did apply, so happy now??

Guess he wasn't

"Why casual? What about the money?"

Here he goes again....

Overload....

As you know,dad's back , and I'm overloaded again....

Anyways, not much to report, besides his "nefarious" schemes relating to money (when will he ever stop...) as well as the ever mouthful you-know-who (same rule applies). Very dysfunctional indeed....

Anyways, I've just had a really depressing day that started because of some silly dream (probably the worst ever) that I recalled I had last night in the middle of my shower...

Geez, it just got weirder...

You just can't get her out of your head, can't you loverboy?And just when you thought you did....She came back...

Georgie