Crazy in Love with Books

This morning I went in search of my latest victims,I went into NITEC,searched for my prey.Unfortunately,there around 7 on my list,so I took 5.

Walking towards the counter with my victims,she looked at me:"Are you sure you want to borrow these??"

Yep,I kill books..

My 5 latest are:Vampire Wars and Vampire Destiny by Darren Shan,Vampire Academy and Frost Bite by Michelle Mead and Maximum Ride:The Angel Experiment by Daniel Patterson.Total number of pages to read in 2 weeks: Over 2000.(*Note:I'm finished with the Shan books,waiting for the next Vamp Academy and will borrow the next Maximum Rides once this bookfest is over)

Sorry people if you think they're related to Twilight.I borrowed them because I was curious.And once more,"Have you read Twilight?" I basically had to lie that it was slowly creeping up my list.As I walked down the hall,my friends were like:You're gonna read all that?!!

Yeah,I'm kinda in a book mood right now,so I'll probably wolf anything in my list.

REVIEW!"BRIDGET JONES'S DIARY"(4 stars)

I'v watched the movie,now I've devoured the book.Marvelous how she checks her weight,cigs,drinks and so on.Sometimes I just love to imagine the way she squeals :yessss!yessss!XD.Darn that Cleaver and his Playboy ways.If Helen Fielding knew that Mark Darcy would be played by Colin Firth who played Fitzwilliam Darcy in the series of Pride and Prejudice which was shown on TV in the novel and Mark Darcy saw it,she be laughing.I mean,two Darcys,one actor=good stuff(no,great!!).Awww,Darcy'd do anything just for her.....(For Bridget and for Elizabth XD)

Breaking Free and Crashing Down:The Bird In The Cage

Looks like the saga is finally over!!!Not without a hunch...

Parents went to see my house dean today while I was in class.And woohoo!!I've got green light on geography.Finally,but it's still not over.Parents wanna see out the end of semester..ARGH,like some contract.Oh well,At least I'm safe for now.

Next up,I've got cross coutry running tomorrow.Just when I thought I could sit back,relax and say:"ahh,Now I know what it feels like to watch....sweet!",I ended up frowning:"Great,I gotta run again....grrr....can't I,like,retire??!!"We don't need to run if we had a medical cert but yeahh....it's time to don my shoes once more,maybe curb my desire to race a little,just jog around and chill(unless Shi Xuan comes around and gets me all revved up XD).Still,I don't know I've EVER relax in running except the walkathon(well,I had to walk...)

Haha anyways,I'm not really looking for a win or anything.Probably I'll just see if I've improved my time or not hehe.See ya!!

On top and break the chain,no gain,don't be afraid but kawaranai same old days,
George

Interlude

OK guys,I'm back on and probably won't be until next week.Dad's coming back tomorrow and probably something's gonna go bad till sunday,regardless of whether I'm involved or not.

Ok apparently for the 1st time I'm gonna review books and apparently there's one that's highly NOT RECOMMENDED at all.You'll know why later :D

1)The Naked Truth by Leslie Nielsen (3 stars)
Basically this untrue true biography from the man who convinced me his name was untrue is practically full of spoofs.It's often lame,and there's moments of weirdness.Well,that's to be expected from an old funny guy with a knack for word puns.

2)A Case Of Need by Michael Crichton writing as Jeffrey Hudson (3 1/2 stars)
Crichton's first novel if I'm not wrong.Published circa 1968,when he was still studying medical.The story is about a man whose friend is arrested as a result of the death of a famous surgeon's daughter by abortion,considered illegal at the time.The man investigates alone to prove his friend's innocence,and also to find the real culprit.Expect the usual breathtaking twists and turns.

3)IT by Stephen King (3 1/2 stars) SERIOUSLY NOT RECOMMENDED
Yep,it's the book I was talking about.That's IT.IT is basically a horror story about 7 children,a Jew,African-American,fat person,boy with "asthma"(phsycologically),trash mouth and a stutterer and a normal girl who fought against a supernatural being in a small town of Derry Maine.They succeeded,but 27 years later,they had to confront it once more to end it for once and for all.

This book is a whopper.It beats Harry Potter and even some dictionaries in terms of pages (1100+ of small,aboutsize 10 font).IT constantly jumps back and forth through time,makng it occasionally surprising.

THE REASON why I wouldn't recomend this book is not because it's scary.....but the contents.In 1958,during the 1st confrontation,they didn't kill it,but just sverely hurt it.Like I said,the 7 consisted of 6 boys and a girl.All were between 11 and 12 years old.I did not understand at all when they were done with it,the worst thing happen.I don't know if the girl was nuts,but sudenly she just........ermmm.....well,allowed the boys to did you-know-what with her one by one.That was the most revolting thing I've ever read.

4)Darren Shan 1-3(4 stars)
*sigh* long story...Darren became a half vamp because his best buddy got bitten by a spider.
Apologies for the short but that was how it started.The best part of 1-3 was definitely the last.where they had to fight Murlough.And DArren loves Debbie...awwww...too bad he's gonna be legal for drinking when she's a grandma XD.

5)Darren Shan 4-6(4 1/2 stars)
This is where the real good stuff comes out.Darren and Crespley travel to Vampire Mountain to attend the council,where Darren met new faces,among them Gavner Purl,Arra Sails,Kurda Smhalt,Seba and the 3 princes.Girl power came along....Arra wasn't beaten for 11 years,Till Kurda did it.YAY! xD.And then.....NNOOOOOOOOOOO!!!Darren failed the trials, and Kurda killed Gavner!!!ARGH.It was sad to see Arra go,poor Crespley,I thought it would be something happier.Women just died too quickly here in the story.AND WHAT??!!DARREN A PRINCE??!!I had to personally re-read the earlier pages just to understand.Sugoi!!

6)Monica Bloom (3 stars)
This is a pretty short one.Talks about boy whose dad was the head of a company and somehow a scandall occurs when the boy meets the neighbours' cousin which is cool?It's a bit dull really,nothing really clicked,just kisses.And the boy had to move and the girl was expelled from school for seeing him outside premises during a dance.Aww...

7)The Fourth Test (3 1/2 stars)
It all started from a mess a drunk man made in an old woman's place
Boy was accused,meets girl from school,his sister's preg and mom's accompanying her to the hospital while he stays at home and occasionally get's visited by her.Meanwhile the man tries to assert his power over him like he did to everyone else.

This one's a bit saucy,17 year old with a girl alone in the house together?Bad idea...it ends with the boy proving himself innocent and beating the heck outta that man.

That's all for now.I'll review movies called RabbitProof Fence and Australian Rules next week.Till then!!

The Pursuit Of Happiness Part 3:Fiery Puppet and The War Next Wednesday

Ok short update on the latest news regarding my subject rift.

Someone certainly knows how to pull strings all right.A few days ago in school my house dean,Mr Barlow told me that mum called and requested him fo help regaring switching from geo to physics,I heard that and began to conceal my fury.He asked whether I want to change it now or not.With great disgust hidden underneath my skin,I just said as soon as possible.....

Later that night dad called mum and had a talk.It's really gonna blow me up.Mum hung up the phone and told me that I had 2 choices,drop geo or remain with it and get hometaught in physics by dad.Nice,very nice,either way it's physics.Checkmate eh??Well,if I were to go to uni(seriously I just don't feel the spark)I might have one condition:I won't take physics.

So yeah,today I had a talk with Mr Barlow.He explained that he had a 20 minute phone convo with dad and apparently managed to bend him a little.He also said that next wednesday,when dad's back,there's be him having a talk with my parents regarding this situation.I just had nothing to say but apologise to Mr Barlow for involving him into this.I would say I have not seen a better teacher around campus other than Mr Barlow himself.But still,I have run simulations in my mind and do not rule out the possibility of me still having to bear the pressure of submitting to my dad's persistive insistence of taking physics.

He said to me in the phone that night:"Don't you regret the decision you've made"And certainly I do not have any.What's the point of throwing geo away when there's physics on the other choice?It's just some not fair "I've got half-win,half-lose --lose situation and you've got a win-win situation".I don't have regrets taking geo.What's the point of taking something if you do?I've already chosen them,and I certainly don't regret it.Regardless of failures I might have,why concede defeat when hearing your parents say:"See?I told you already,but you didn't listen".
Instead,stand by your decisions,go through the failures and move on.I don't say that we are bound to fail on achieving something,I say that there will be fresh paths that branch out to even more opportunities.

Anyways I'll come with part 4 sometime around next week.It's time I give ratings to the books I've read.Ciao!

The Pursuit Of Happiness Part 2:Weakening Perseverance

Hey people,I'm back.It's obvious that I should finish what I started so yeah..

Now,I was speaking of my dad moulding me into what he wanted,which,out of all things,is to be an engineer just like him.Basically he rattled me by ranting around the fact that I didn't take physics means that I took out 80% of a known occupations.He too mentioned that science subjects should be together.Seriously,I don't really find any connection AT ALL between biology and civil engineering.I wouldn't really say that the 3 of them should be together.Take out bio and you're out of fields related to scientific research,physics and you're not like Bob The Builder.Only chemistry I believe is adamant behind these fields,but generally is more on the scientist field of work.By the way,80%??I wouldn't say that.Probably 40-50%,yes,maybe(as far as I could think.if you guys have any figure,don't mind if you show me)

That's what I have to say.I didn't take accounts either,meaning I'm not following the respective paths my parents took.I'm not into construction(I'd preferscout structures ONLY) nor accounting(No-brainer.I wouldn't want to sit in a chair for 10 hours a day almost everyday just to count the cash of the company for my boss and also getting my butt big).Sure,they've known the road,but does it still remain unchanged?The world can be unpredictable.They might be right,they might not,but what I take is what I choose.I can't really figure why shouldn't I try something new...whether it's a tennis player,teacher,or an archaeologist,etc,etc.I've been priviledged to be a kid having done so many things that I enjoy,but why put a lid on what I want to be and poke a hole towards the path you've gone through?Basically,I AM DIFFERENT,AND EVERYBODY IS.I would follow if that's what I want,but too bad it's not.

Now that I'm 15 and in Grade 11(I still feel inferior to you guys) it's about time I should start thinking for what course I should take in university(Don't know where,but I've set my sights on Queensland University,regardless mum or dad want it or not).I'm not really sure if it's just me,but I have still not chosen a particular field of work I want to be specialized in.I've been considering an advice one guy gave to me when I travelled home by bus from school:"Sometimes you don't really know what you're gonna do,so probably you'll take some courses and see if you like it or not until you've eventually found the right one." Yeah,I'm still lost,but without faith from anyone,not even my dad,it's time I should find my desires stealthily without creatng a ripple in the water.

Now,I just have something short about my mum.Basically I don't know if periods have something to do with this,but occasionally(wait,very often)she would practically backstab anyone against her.She has a bad habit of calling people "too proud".Hewitt(agreed before,like 5 years ago,but he's changed now),Djokovic and even me(what??!!).Look who's talking,and don't forget,if I were what you said,I WOULD HAVE GOT IT FROM YOU,IN CASE YOU DIDN'T NOTICE.In fact,the "proud" person shouldn't be anyone mentioned.WHY CAN'T SHE POSSIBLY KEEP HER THOUGHTS TO HERSELF(Now's not a time to use that against me as I'm BLOGGING HERE)??!!SHE ENDLESSLY TRIES TO MAKE OTHERS SEE HER AS A "FIGURE OF HOPE".Ain't gonna do so if this continues...

The other day mum wanted me to get a piece of yellow paper with Internet subscription.I couldn't find it,until she realised IT WAS PINK.'Huhhhhhhh...."I sighed,meaning:"oh,so itwas pink,not yellow...".The next thing was;"WHAT HUH??!!WHAT HUH??!!WHERE'S YOUR MANNERS???!!" and tossed an extra paper back from her hand which held the pink piece A4.
It really disgusted me when she sounded like an electrocuted duck,so I proceeded to my room,and quietly closed the door(I didn't slam.She'll pick a fight if I do,and she loves to do so).What happens next is up to you,but she sounded ABSOLUTELY fake the moment other people came in.It's so annoying to hear that fake,soft laughter.......

I didn't add the fact that both my parents sound as if they're DIVORCED.Yeah,they seriously do.It's so bothering me,being the only child and witnessing the catastrophic relationship they have.It's like mum makes a fuss out of some little matter and made dad angry.And when dad "wins" the argument and is out of sight,mum silently blasts at him.

The other day Dad said to me,telling me to help him to get mum out of her "Locked World".HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT??!!YOU'RE THE HUSBAND HERE,AND I'M THE CHILD.I'M NOT SOME MARRIAGE COUNSELLOR!!IT'S UP TO YOU TO DO SOMETHING,NOT FLY ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE CONTINENT AND WORK,LEAVING ME TO DO THE JOB OF PATCHING YOUR MARRIAGE TO HER WHEN SHE BASICALLY GOES HER WAY WHENVER SHE LIKES.IN FACT,I AM THE RESULT OF BOTH OF YOU,AND IF YOU'RE ASKING THE EVIL THAT WAS CONCEIVED INTO THIS WORLD ON MARCH 3,1994,WHY NOT JUST END ME RIGHT NOW!!I'M PRACTICALLY RIGHT HERE!!

Geez,I seriously could take a whole bottle of anti-depressants and still be worse than Kurt Cobain(search Wiki if you don't now who he is).It still remains the fact that I don't do drugs,nor smoke or drink,but seriously,I can't really withstand this much punishment that was dished out towards me(and probably myself).Where'd I go,I don't know.I've lived to see the harsh reality that came from a manga I've read.

This manga was Neon Genesis Evangelion Volume 5 Page 74

:"People only live by their own strength.They grow by their own strength.Only infants need parents.Stand on your two feet and walk.I learned to do the same."

It sounds ridiculous.But somehow,I believe we all remain infants,yet we are parents,parents of our own destiny.So tell me,aren't co-workers like infants and parents?Are we really considered grownups by the rule of the quote written above?Ignorance may be bliss,but it ALSO is the cause to destruction.It's up to you to decide whether I'm insane or not.Correct me if I'm wrong,but I might just possibly be a person desperaly crying for help,hoping others to find faith in him.Yet I know,I might have to walk alone in the boulevard of broken dreams,towards the reaity....

The Pursuit Of Happiness Part 1:Numb

Hey guys,sorry about the late post but I've been enduring some serious stress lately.They just somehow came in swarms,each generating more trouble than the ones before.I'm making this post just for you all to hear me out and hopefully help me find my light in the dark.

First of all,I didn't go to Aussie because I wanted to,but was kind of by force.Dad was constantly ranting about Brunei being a country with a failing economy,too small to be successful,hence setting the plan to move to Austraia in motion.I was supposed to leave before I even reached primary level.But somehow it was delayed for 10 long years,including 2008 which was by my plea to finish Form 4.I would have stayed with you guys until graduation if it weren't for his intervention by responding that he would not support us if we continue staying any longer.

Seriously I don't mean to hurt anyone,but you guys are in my heart the right friends,in the right time,but in a not-so-right place.Nothing is ever perfect,but you all are the closest.It's without hestitative thinking that this place,Australia,is still a nation in it's infancy.I wouldn't consider it a 1st world nation,not by a longshot.This was mainly due to its isolation.Sure,it is huge,and it represents a move from a small puddle to a big pond,but just feels SO WRONG.

When I moved here,I thought that I would still be able to pursue what I love,what I wanted to be,but it didn't happen.Tennis is one road of life I might take and working the other.In my opinion(nothing to do with any of you,I PROMISE) if I were in Oz I could improve my tennis and hopefully reach what I aimed for.I know I'm getting old and progressing not as quick as some,but I still do want to be among the best there is.

What happened?I crashed and burned.I recognize tennis here is in a whole new level,hence it fueled my desire even more.It raised my hopes to fulfil my dream,but I was hindered by the very person who used to bring me to the club as a kid and left me alone to hit with the wall.

A week ago,I received my report card which showed average results(in my terms,I wouldn't say it's bad,and definitely better than last year).But to my old folks,it wasn't good enough.Dad was kind of black-faced and mum was constantly mumbling....Basically,I didn't fail anything(NOT EVEN MY CHINESE) and the worst I got was a C (Chemistry.Sorry I let everyone down)And the rests were A's and B's(I know it's still disappointing if you all look at it,but yeah,my geo actually was an A but it came out as B+,maths and Religion was A,English B,and bio I would guess is B since I have C on one end and A on another.My Chinese was B if I'm not wrong).

Dad started a tense conversation with me

"DO you like tennis or not?"
"Yeah,I do"
"YOU PLAY TENNIS FOR SOCIAL OR WHAT??!!WHAT'S THE POINT OF SENDING YOU TO TENNIS IF YOU'RE PLAYING JUST FOR SOCIAL??!!.IF YOU DO,THEN DON'T PLAY ANYMORE.WHAT'S THE POINT??!!TELL ME,DO YOU STILL WANT TO PLAY TENNIS OR NOT?"
By this time I was already beginning to be really upset.I have not(and DID NOT) thought of playing just for fun,it is he himself that blurted it out,making me think like I did.
"Yeah"
"If you don't improve within one term,then it's quits.YOU HEAR ME?"
"Mmm"


I felt like a glass shattered.The day before he gave me a year and now a term.I DID NOT COME HERE JUST TO LET GO OF WHAT I LOVED!I CAME HERE TO REACH MY DREAMS,NOT MAKE MYSELF YOUR CLAY FIGURE,MOLDING ME INTO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE.And if you think it's just that,and I would say that you might think I'm being hardheaded,feel free to think so,but I stand by my decision to pick up where I left off.And if you think that's the end,it's not...

I'm sorry if I freaked out any of you,but I just have to let myself out.I just feel so alone,so numb with fear for my future.I just don't feel much of one anymore...

LoveBug again..Boys will be boys

Here's a short rundown on 2 romance novels and 3 action movies plus my 'Wanna see' list

Romance
1)Love like water (3 1/2 stars)
It's a SHOCKER!!Multiculture love.Believe me,it drags on early and suddeny the momentum slowly begins to build up and the climax is exactly what a love story should be.It's set where else but in the middle of Australia,Alice Springs.

Good stuff,but patience is what you should have.

2)Saving Francesca (4 stars)
From the author of 'Looking For Alibrandi',Melina Marchetta,comes a story that well.......involves love,duh.As usual,the Italian feeling is present,but so does the normal stereotypical girls(The silent one,the nerdy,the rebellious and the playgirl XD) PLus the boys(bad boy,captain,you know the drill).

Who doesn't love a happy ending?It's a seriously good book,highly recommended.And oh,did I mention Pride and Prejudice had a little part?For fans of Austen,you mightn't like the description of Lydia but other than that....bravo


Movies
1)Max Payne (3 stars)
The videogame comes to the movie screen starring Mark Wahlberg as the man who lost his family and is seeking revenge

It is a dark film with plenty of loose ends and you'll probably pan it but yeah,everything comes together in the end.Good effects,but random slow-mo timings.PLus,funny how one man takes down everything......


2)The Mummy:Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor(3 1/2 stars)
"Here we go again!!!"This film is a slight disappointment from the first 2 but what can you expect?Where else could they go?The answer could be found in most labels and lemme change that a little bit:Set In China.Brendan Fraser isn't as loud as he was,it feels odd without Rachel Weisz,Daryl Hannah isn't as funny and why aren't they aging much after 20 years?Good thing they put in the Yeti and heavily CGI-ed Jet Li(he looks blimped).

Funny moment:Alex O' Connor exclaims that he's dating an 'old' woman in the form of young actress Isabella Leong

3)Kung Fu Panda (4 1/2 stars)
I know I'm an oldie in movies,but this one is totally awesome!!Who would have thought of a fat panda?Good work from Dreamworks and an excellent voice casting.Perfect slow-no actions and fight scenes.Jackie Chan's a little underused though.....Who want's a chopstick fiGht over a dumpling with me? XD


Must see
1)Race to Witch Mountain
I smelled a cook in Dwayne Johnson a.k.a The Rock,looks like it could be a treat..

2)Fast and Furious
Guys,it's enough of making fun of the titles.GET SERIOUS!!Vin's back,so's Michelle,Billy and Jordana.Let's race!!Va-va-vroom.

Get ready for the clock rockin beats!

If situations could be changed at will.....

I walked across the street,following the bicycle.Suddenly a taxi went past,and I was sandwiched.The next thing was: USE YOUR F***** EYES!!

Bummer....

What on earth is wrong with people here??!!Ain't there a sense of control??Can anyone at least stop swearing??!!THIS IS PATHETIC!!

I would seriously consider criticizing this country I'm in for whatever cost it would be.It's SO WRONG HERE!!I mean,I know it was my mistake and I crossed the road and suddenly the taxi appeared out of nowhere,but at least try not to overreact...

If I were free to say anything,Australia is certainly a disaster.Totally Neanderthal-ish in describing most of my classmates.This is such a nightmare!!

Anyways,cut of all my rage...I'm seriously stressed out,I couldn't remember my mum's b'day or what day was it...Period.And just yesterday I lost to a lefty in tennis.Percentage of wins agains lefty:about 15%(1/6).Geez.....\

This post is kind of short,and it is getting shorter nowadays.I just simply couldn't manage to squeeze up the whole week into one post.Maybe if I could have internet the whole time,then hopefully I'll spend time with everyone.I was really happy just to hear from anyone avalaible online but yeah,besides that,I just couldn't go on being the same person I was.

I don't even know who I really was anymore.I feel lost,dejected.It's like I killed part of myself.I don't recognise my own voice anymore.It's like I just fell apart,turning into some intergalactic being,emotionless,concealing all the feelings,leaving them behind....

There's one song which has a line that could describe what I would say right now....which is:

"If I could,then I would
I'll go wherever you will go.
Way up high.or down low,
I'll go wherever you will go.

If I could turn back time;
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go whrever you will go....."