Till I Collapse

Right,no story about daily life for today,just a mysterious post which is about me probably needing some help and advice....

It all started when a classmate of mine noticed "my" W910i(using it as storage of files because it had memory stick) and had a hand on it.

Guess what I did:Snatched it back.

No,I wasn't angry or anything,I just had to recover what was "mine"(the B'day gift)and make a little modifications to it.I wouldn't want him to see my phone picture(nothing pervy,people,believe me).

I changed my mobile wallpaper to one which is the picture of,well,me,alone,face covered by black beanie(something like that,but I'm not kidnapped,mind you).He was like:"That's rude,George"(He wasn't angry,just kinda dissappointed XD)So I apologised.Well,disaster averted.

That's not the story,but it played a part of my "hauntings".You see,when I got on the bus home,I felt conflicted between wishes and reality.I was hallucinating,but without drugs or alcohol(I'll probably blame on the coffee I took a few months back XP).One moment I was imagining things and the next I just felt like knocking myself unconscious.It happened all the way till I got on the couch to watch my favourite show at 7.30pm.Whoever was that,I'm not mentioning,but I was plainly frustrated at myself.It has definitely inflicted damage on me and this one wasn't so bad,but the cracks I have are beginning to open.I don't know how long it will last.Somehow I don't want it to be permanent,yet don't want it erased from me.

So guys,probably that's it.I'm having another bout of depression now because of what's happening to me.It's kind of a random event,pulling me away from my own purpose and thinking about its.

Until the lights go out,until my legs give out,
George