Stop and stare

In one year my life took a turn for the worst and the next I feel like going 6 feet under.

Checked the draw for the next tourney and I thought it was kinda favourable at first.Then they had a redraw,and now I'm against the same person who booted me out of the 1st round on Monday.Same went for doubles,only this time I've got two people who I've met before on the other side of the court whereas my mum can't resist blasting me for getting a random pick and ending up with a dud as a doubles player.

P.S mum:I've seen the results and I'm convinced that he's no dud.In fact, you're getting really annoying cuz you're not really having a good understanding.Agreement?WHAT AGREEMENT??!!You broke it as soon as it started.Call that an agreement?I call that breaching....If you haven't noticed, you've been wanting to desert me for ages.You can't wait to see me fail life and mock my choices.You prefer a person live free rather than die trying, and run away from the wounded.Call yourself a mum?It's more like I didn't exist and a robot in my place.

Head's so screwed up right now I just feel I wanna go