Whirlwind

Short(maybe long) post..

Had a "spat" with James on Tuesday,plainly because something snapped.Regardless of who started it(due to my resentment,I gave him quick tactics in doubles in which he responded that I wasn't talking to him in tennis practice....),I've decided to avoid as much conflicts as possible(can't be helped when you have someone doing techno beats with the mouth which may seem awesome but gets really annoying...).

Well,I apologise for not being in detail today,it's just that I'm getting moody again.....Angry,depressed,sad and felt a bit high whenever I hang out with my usual groups in class(except Maths B, where I'm sitting just a seat away from you-know-who...).Music's the same thing.When I feel a little dark,I tend to hear the sad melodies.If I'm cheerful,then the dance songs often come to mind.But once in a while I still feel confused,and would listen to anything.....Oh,and dad left this morning..

I guess I'm still the same person as I am,or probably a shadow of my own self.Attempts to right the wrongs are futile.I tried to correct my bad habits(getting more forgetful...) and just ended up having more degrading comments thrown at me (mostly from mom).Oh well,I guess this is my life,and I'll have to live with it...

Urgh,I'm so messed up....like totally.I don't know what to do.It's not me to blend in and act like everything's normal.I don't get why I could have 2 different personalities.I feel so emo......There I go,spacing out again....

Anyways,assignments are ripping me up right now...There's bio which I'm testing for transpiration rates of different plants(ad I have to do it everyday for 2 weeks...),as well as English(Need to write a feature article so look out for me in Borneo Bulletin!!lolz I think I'll go for generation gap issues since I tend to be against the principles of the Generation Xers...) and Chemistry(Just tested anions and cations yesterday,wonder if they have something interesting because it involves testing on water and NOT testing for the elements....By the way,Water is our project,trying to find best way to desalinate it....How lame.....).

Oh well,so much more to say...I'll return with a post on Saturday,and I shall promise you that,even if it isn't my duty....Oh man,spaced out again...

P.S I heard you guys have 'O' levels right now.Just wanna say all the best to all of you,especially you......Somehow,now that I'm kinda low,I wanna look at your face in the picture again.......Great,THAT'S THE 3RD TIME I SPACED OUT!!ARGH!!