Curtain Call?

Ok I've just finished my tournament,I'm darn tired,and I crashed in the afternoon before regaining consciousnessat 8.30pm for my dinner.

In case you guys would want to know how'd I go,here's the results(with scores XD)

Doubles
Friday Quarters:6-3 7-5
Sunday Semis:Lost 6-4 1-6 Tiebreaker 4-7 (No 3rd set,either their rules or someone just can't stand the heat XD)

Technically,I'm not much of a doubles specialist,but I do try and provide as much assistance as I can.Plus,it's a first to have a partner that talks MORE than I do XD.We had a good time even though we lost.I don't really think we played badly.Partner usually just chips the ball back in play but for today,I told him I don't really mind if he took a swipe at it and it went out.After all,it's well worth the try XD.Ain't got no shame doing that whie being underdogs vs the 2nd seeds (I played one of them in my singles) yooooooooo!

Psst,I think I made some parents raise their eyebrows because I was hitting the ball towards the body of the volleyer while receiving.After a few successful attempt,our opponents were more than happy to stand back and NOT get "hurt" XD.I didn't hit anyone,but I was thinking they'd put a racket and block it somehow instead of dodging it.I believe they've never encountered someone that "dangerous" LOL.And what'd I get?One of them tried to return the favour and nearly took my head off.Ball was out XP.

I know I'm not supposed to ask,but am I going a little overboard on the "aiming for the volleyer" thing?You can post you comments on the cbox :D Hope to hear.Anyways besides that,has anybody heard of the "short deuce" rule?It's like after the 1st deuce,someone has the advantage and loses the point,creating a second deuce.Now whoever wins this point gets the game,not having the advantage.WHAT KIND OF RULE IS THAT??!!I've been playing tournaments for like 5-6 years and I've NEVER HEARD OF IT,TILL THIS WEEK.Blah,it's just as bad as the "double bounce" rule I encountered during my munchkin days.
Note:"deuce rule" plays an important part in my singles XD

Now,for the singles(note:I'm unseeded because I'm new XD)
Friday Round of 16:6-3 6-1
Talk about bad starts.It was kind of hard to adjust to synthetic courts.I mean,I thought it was hard,but it definitely didn't felt like it.Never got past the round of 16,now's my chance.It's not easy to get past someone who serves hard and either gets it in or double faults.His string snapped as well.Nice guy though,told me in 3 tourneys he lost to players who won them XD.Could it be......

Saturday Quaters:6-0 6-2
1st quarterfinal appearance and somone forgot to told me the guy's a lefty(Note:my record was 1-5 before tournament,now's 3-5).The only thing I had to do was make him move.Did it well in the 1st set,and found myself 0-2 down in the second(I presume I just wanna catch my breath)Before reeling off the next 6 not-so-easy games.2nd set was interesting plainly because there were quite some exchanges in contrast to the 1st which the guy was kind of shellshocked(Nobody know me remember?:D).ON TO SUNDAY!!

Sunday Semis
6-1 6-2
Good thing I got my quarters done and dusted quickly as my would-be opponent was playing on the other side of the fence.SHOCKING!!NO.1 SEED GONE!!What did I say?Erm, 2 things:Yes because I've never beaten No.1 seed and and I hate lefties and NOOOOO,where's the 3rd set?6-1 6-7(5) 9-7 and No.1 seed went out,while the other one was kinda pumped up.Beating 1st seed=Hot favourite?Answer:Waking up in a Sunday morning at 5.15 am certainly puts me in a bad mood.And...HE FELL FOR MY MENTAL TRICK!!!I don't like the "short deuce"rule,so I just asked if I could play the "long euce".Said he didn't mind...it was his call,could have said no if he wanted to(I might argue because I prefer the "true" rules of the game".So,in you come,out you shall go.Got a little "Dementieva's syndrome"(Made it up XD).Before closing out the match.FINALS!!YAY!!Against No.2 seed in singles(who so happens to be the one I played against in doubles semis)who took out his partner (yes,his partner.Kissed and made up pretty quickly XD)6-4 6-3 to set himself up(again...)as the favourite(I just love being the underdog.No seeding=No knowledge of player :D)for the finals.

Sunday Finals
Well,whaddaya know.I'm in the finals for the 1st time after 4 tournaments(1st quarters and semis too XD)and up against the No.2 seed.

Advantages:Nobody knows me(Some were left jaws out from looking at my serve XD).I've got nothing to lose.I know I'm better(yes,I do.Was a little wrong though...)and I've got a plan.I also played less matches (2 to his 3 for the day)

Disadvantages:I'm shorter(happens all the time now...),the underdog(loving the tag),he's on a high after winning his 3 matches while I lost one of mine.

I rarely get beaten because of my fitness,but my mental states kind of let me down a bit and that tend to be the cause of losing.So then,1)More rest vs more matchplay experience.2)Seeding confidence vs nothing-to-lose 3)Serve vs return

Honestly,I was surprised myself when I had a hard whack on my serves...even more stunning was HE GOT THEM BACK!!Wowwie,I just did a roughly 100mph(I'd say around 150kph which is like around 95)and he smacked it right back to me.A long day it is....

He bettered me in ALMOST every aspect of the game.Groundstrokes,which were my best allies,were outclassed by his.Tried chip and charge,he hit a winner.Got him on the run,he got me on the backfoot.*sigh*....

I played a Sam Stosur kind of the,you know,heavy forehands,almost no backhand,plenty of volleys(VOLLEYS ARE MY CHINK)and probably it DID pay off a little bit.But that wasn't enough for the win.I did mention "almost",didn't I?Well,that "almost" was the serve.I hate to admit this,but he has "Dementieva's syndrome" XD while I'm pretty much "A-Rod" mood today(emotionless).The serve made the difference.

The score?Ummmm....Broke him for 2-0 in the 1st set.....Broke back for 2-1...held serves for 3-2,4-3 and 5-4....He was serving to stay in the set and probably there was pressure on him and he double faulted to hand me the set 6-4.

2nd set:BROKEN IMMEDIATELY,NOOOO!!!Broke his serve again X 1-1,Went ahead 2-1,and broke again for 3-1,lost my serve for 3-2,broke again(quite a lots of breaks :D)for 4-2 and held for 5-2 LEAD!!!Joy?Nah,he held his serve 5-3

So it all comes down to this.Never won a tourney in 2-3 years,not gonna let it slip now...Drop volleyed for 15-0.Whuuutttt??!!He still hits winners after all this time??!!(I counted like over 20 XD I don't think I even have 5 LOL)15-15.Got the next point for a 30-15.And CARELESSLY smashed a ball like 1-2 inches long.GAH!!Coulda have 2 match points there.He gave a point back thanks to a close call for 40-30.

I've never closed out with an ace before XD,but I wouldn't wanna do something reckless.Got the serve in,set the forehand,came into the net,volleyed,and when does he ever stop trying.....another clean winner for a deuce.Played safe on this point,just placing the ball good enough to keep him moving.Out ball,Advantage....

Dumped 1st serve in the net,and I mishit my 2nd serve(nerves?).Went in though XP and play on!!BAckhand crosscourt towards me,backhand down the line to his forehand.HE hit crosscourt,so did I.Crosscourt again,I took a big step(I wonder if I've got my stretching fixed XD)and hit a low crosscourt back to his forehand once more.Reached for hit,made it lower,but my low ball earlier just went over the net,could it even get over?

Nah,6-4 6-3 was the scoreline.Normally,people would be jumping or smiling or all that sort of stuff,but was I happy?

No I wasn't.Somehow this past week I know I've made bad decisions on some stuff,and somehow dad JUST MADE IT WORSE.I wouldn't want to point the finger on him.But I heard from mum talking to others like:"I've never seen him this aggresive.His father already gave a warning.If he gets past the quarters,maybe he can continue.."

WHAT WAS THAT??!!That was a gutless quote.Do I have to remind them that I've barely been heere 6 months,played less than 5 tourneys,adjusting life here and TRYING TO COPE WITH WHAT I LOST??!!AND DON'T FORGET I DONT EVER RECALL YOU WINNING A TOURNEY.You can't just take away what I have.I've gone this far in life only to have it stripped bare just for you to continue your own pursuit.IS MONEY THAT POWERFUL??!!

You know,I'm not even close to being happy right now.I'm not even an adult yet,and I know I'm not supposed to whine about anything,but I'm just so discouraged to find that I've got no support.Why let me go on when you're gonna cut it off soon anyway?THAT'S TORTURE.IF YOU'VE GOT *bleep*,TALK TO ME,ONE ON ONE!DON'T JUST WAIT FOR THE MOMENT YOU'VE BEEN WAITING FOR.

I don't know what to do now....I'm terribly distraught...No light on the road,no siblings I could talk to at night.I had to beat my heart out just to try and cry,but those tears wouldn't come out.I've had enough,trophies don't mean anything,winning doesn't mean anything.There's no meaning to it when there's no one to console you when you're feeling down.....No meaning.....